My Life Sucks

^^*AcA*^^ at 10:05 PM

Saturday, May 23, 2009

woaaaahhhh.. long time no updates.. well, now there's 1 tiny one!!

I went SHOPPING!!! I'm so happy for myself!!! I bought 2 new t-shirts!!! It was on sale!!! And also a lego set!!! NICE!!!

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^^*AcA*^^ at 10:46 PM

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Monday, April 13, 2009

UPDATE!!!

Birthday was spend simple this year just because I SPLURGE A HUGE SUM LAST YEAR FOR MY 21ST.. LOL!!! HAHAHA!!! LMAO!!! ROFL!!!

But it was worth every single cent spent..

Friday itself was a busy day.. Well, not really busy for me but 3 events were happening at the same time!! Firstly, the constant birthday wish messages coming into my phone.. Secondly, it was my trainees' POP.. Thirdly, JVS' SYF competition which I was unable to go cause of my trainees' POP..

So happy to see them go off to another chapter in their NS life; Station life.
Most of them gave thanks both through sms and FB.. It feels great.. Here's wishing them all the best and may they have plentiful experiences..

Birthday update.. I got Final Fantasy Distant World OST from BCF, New pair of Shoes from Woman and Mambang and a Billabong t-shirt from my cousin.. Last year people give too many presents to me liao, this year only get 3.. HAHAHA.. So sad.. But I still feel blessed to have friends who remembered my birthday at least.. =)

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^^*AcA*^^ at 6:17 PM

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Sunday, March 29, 2009

WOW.. It's been a while since I update this blog..

First on the list!! My trainees will be Passing Out (not literally) on Friday!!! Wheew!! Finally!! There they go into station life for some, medical centre and etc..

Ouh yeah, what's the deal with Earth Hour??? "Turn off your lights for 1 hour". Hello?? Who in the world suggested this movement?? I can turn off the lights but still be watching my TV on my Home Theatre System full blast with my Mom using the kitchen appliances and my Bros hogging on the computer surfing the internet while my sisters watching tv in their rooms.. WHAT BLOODY DIFFERENCE DOES IT MAKE TO HELP SAVE THE WORLD?? I'm still using electricity.. Just not using the lights..

I think we should do our part as individuals.. Recycling and stuff but most importantly we should be more aware about our usage.. We often leave fan or radio switches ON even though we are not using them.. Or powering the heater for no one.. hahaha.. These forgetful behaviour can be avoided and thus reducing the power usage in your own houses.. Not by switching off the lights for 1 full hour ONCE a YEAR.. DUMB..

Anyway, other than my usual rants.. I bought myself GTA : Chinatown Wars for the NDS and IT ROCKS!!! I'm hooked and I often miss my stop playing it.. HAHAHA!!! I still remember my 1st time playing the PSP in the train.. On the way to school from Boon Lay to Clementi, I looked up and realise it was already QUEENSTOWN.. HAHAHA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TOTALLY ENGROSSED!!!!!!!!!!

So my birthday will be coming this Friday.. That day alone coincides with my tainees' POP and JVS will be going for their SYF at 1130hrs as well.. HAHAHA.. Well, I hope this year will be a fun Birthday for me even though I don't plan to make any party or celebration or any other plans.. Wishes this year?? hmmm.. I dunno...

There's just so many things I want and need but most of all I need my mom to be healthy and safe for more years to come.. Hopefully she gets to see me get married.. Or even have children!! hahaha.. That's my ultimate wish.. I want that to happen..

As for in this materialistic world, my wishlist to the left would be good.. An iPod Nano, New Specs, New Bag, New Watch, New Shoes, New EVERYTHING and of course MOOOOOOOOOOOLAHHHHHSSSSSSSS!!!! hahaha..

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^^*AcA*^^ at 6:52 PM

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Friday, February 27, 2009

I took a quiz in Facebook asking, what type of musical instrument I am and I am none other than the.....

FRENCH HORN!!!

Here's the description of my personality and I must say it's true especially eht blurting out part.. LOL!!! And the part about liking small get together..

You are very sassy! You have a high IQ and are not affraid to let people know it. You like to be different and have a few strange 'quirks' here and there, but are an all around good person. you can come of brash and blunt and sometimes people don't know how to handle your honesty. Try taking people's feelings into consideration more often. you will learn to live better with them if you think about what you say before you say it; like horn calls, Horn players have a natural tendancy to blurt out whatever is on their mind. They don't like to party but they do like small get together. You'd much rather have lunch with a close friend or two than to go to an extravagent party. You enjoy lavash things, and really love to help people and animals.

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^^*AcA*^^ at 7:45 PM

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Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Being a leader in a very regimental organisation requires the individual to maintain discipline and order. This would, in turn, trigger some sort of punishments if any lower ranked individuals were to break or ignore any regulations set by higher authority.

Being a leader myself, I always had the thought of giving such punishments but somehow deep in me, I feel awkward and wrong. Having to shout at trainees for whatever reason will make me feel uneasy. Maybe because I have never been yelled at before. I swear, for as long as I can remember, the only person who laid his hands on me was my Dad. No one else; not even Mom. Mom would scold and nag but she will keep her hands to herself.

Somehow, I feel weird to be in such position. I have to maintain discipline by punishment if rules are broken but at the same time, I would feel bad punishing these group of people.

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A little update about myself. Recently, I wasn't myself due to mixed emotions I encountered. I still am now but I will try not to show it to people around me and not let it get in my way or disrupt me of my duties at work.

And obviously, I need cash. What's new huh??

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^^*AcA*^^ at 10:00 PM

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Thursday, February 19, 2009

I feel like I'm gonna be sick..
Been having this drowsy / dizzy feeling every time I blow my nose or when I sit up from lying position..

On a lighter note, I finally ordered my Nightmare Grand Killer Show and is now in transit.. MORE WAITING.. shit.. But it's okay.. I will be watching it as a stress relief while taking the next batch of medics.. :)

Duty on Monday again.. But it's okay.. I volunteered.. Cause my senior was in a super stress mode and I feel that I should help lighten his burden..

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^^*AcA*^^ at 9:28 PM

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Monday, February 16, 2009

People at work had been asking if I am feeling okay.. My response were constant..

A simple Yes - To ease them from worrying but not relieving anything off my troubled mind.. Even though I feel demoralized and the unwillingness of doing anything at all..

I know for sure I have to go through this phase myself.. Thanks for worrying bout me..

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Ya Allah.. Aku merayu kepadaMu untuk kau memberikanku kekuatan untuk mengatasi segala cabaran dan ujian yang telah kau sediakan untukku..

Oh Almighty Allah.. I come forth to you begging for you to give me the strength to clear all the obstacles and tests of my faith that you have prepared for me..

Aku hanyalah manusia yang lemah..

I am only a weak human being..

Air mata yang mengalir setiap malam, hanya Kau tahu bertapa sunyi hidupku serta segala perasaan pedih yang telahku alami selama ini..

The tears that I cried every night, only you know the utmost loneliness and the most pain my heart had experience all this while..

Show me the path..

I don't think I can carry on like this... not anymore...

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^^*AcA*^^ at 9:41 PM

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Monday, February 09, 2009

I am strangely quiet today at work.. I have no idea why but it must have been one of my moody days.. I guess I finally felt that loneliness that surrounded me for the longest time since, finally smacked me on the face..

Moody me.. For some time I guess.. Emo.. I might smile and laugh with you but I can assure you it's just a facade.. Very sure.. Haiz..

What's wrong with me? Can someone bring me back to my normal self? My mind's just scrambled with mixed emotions..

I need that hug..
To tell me that I'm appreciated..

I need that assurance..
To know that I can still go on..

I need that warm touch..
To know there is someone I can rely on..

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^^*AcA*^^ at 9:51 PM

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Saturday, January 31, 2009

I am PISSED... IRRITATED... ANNOYED...

People.. What is the function of a mobile phone..? Basic function is, to make and RECEIVE calls..

SO PLEASE ANSWER MY F***ING CALLS CAN OR NOT?!?!?!? ASS.. GOT PHONE BUT DON'T ANSWER WHEN PEOPLE CALL FOR WHAT?!?!?

Under these circumstances are you allowed to not answer your phone:

1) When you are asleep..
2) When you are involved in a major accident..
3) When you are in the Esplanade or ICU units..
4) When you are unconscious or in a state of coma..
5) When trauma strikes your close family members..
6) When your phone is confiscated from you..

OTHER THAN THOSE MENTIONED ABOVE, PLEASE F***ING ANSWER THE F***ING PHONE!!!
I AM TRYING TO GET TO YOU!!!

Earlier today, I had to return my school's snare drum, and this friend of mine PROMISED to meet at 730 at JE MRT platform.. But I called since 715 till 735 but no one answered but instead after the 27th attempt, he SWITCH OFF his phone..

Secondly, my phone's battery is almost at it's critical - 2 bars.. And I was told to meet at 3 but no one arrived at the meeting place until 1.5hrs later.. Called this friend but she did not answer till the 7th call.. And she was walking around the same building..

WHAT THE HELL LAH WOMAN!!! CAN CHECK YOUR DAMN PHONE OR NOT?!?!? YOU KNOW PEOPLE WILL BE MEETING YOU SO PLEASE CHECK YOUR F***ING PHONE REGULARLY!!!

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^^*AcA*^^ at 11:17 PM

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Monday, January 19, 2009

1 word... SLACK..

Yes.. I've been wanting to do this for quite a while after weeks of working.. Alas!! I have my off approved and i'll be resting at home tomorrow.. BUT!! I think my bro's not working either because it's his birthday tomorrow..

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Just when I want to spend some time alone.. Have the house to myself.. Do some soul searching, sipping on my cuppa Vanilla Ceylon Coffee Bean tea.. Fuhhh!! I desperately want that to happen tomorrow!! It'll be soooooooo damn peaceful lah.. Add in a couple of friends, just chilling and chatting together... Shiok-ness..

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I laughed EXTREMELY hard today at work.. My stomach hurts like mad.. I've never laughed so hard for a very very veeeeeerrrryyy looooooong time.. It felt good.. Painfully good.. I've made good friends in NS.. I feel blessed..

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I got my psp back!! And I have nothing to play on it.. rightt... erm, any nice games to recommend??

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I should tune in to more MTV and More radio..

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20th January!!! Barack Obama is now officially US and A President!!! CHANGE IS FINALLY HERE!!! F*** B*** FOR SUPPORTING ISRAEL!!!

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^^*AcA*^^ at 11:57 PM

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Thursday, January 15, 2009

Most people who know me will usually see me as someone who's always looking on the bright side and think positive.. Most of my friends have not even seen me angry or pissed off!! hahaha..

It's not me to just go bursting in anger for the slightest mistake.. Well, sometimes I do.. But it'll only last for a couple of minutes!! And I'll go back to my normal crazy and happy-go-lucky personality.. hahaha..

BUT!!! One thing that really makes me irritated or damn pissed (oops).. Stupid questions or stupid sentences or stupid theories given by stupid people.. LOL!!! I don't mean to be offensive but it simply ticks me off.. I just don't get what's going through their mind before they actually speak.. Hence, as the saying goes, THINK BEFORE YOU SPEAK MOFO!!.. Minus the MOFO part.. yeah..

Anyway, it's really annoying ar.. asking stupid questions, BUT sometimes you really really REALLY need to ask stupid questions.. But it's not as stupid as normal conversation stupid questions.. Get it??

Like okay for example.. When someone got hurt, a normal human reaction, people will ask, "Are you okay?" even though he/she knows the other party is in pain/injured.. But this question is to get information.. Cause usually, after the question is asked, the other party will point to the injury site and reply with something like, "I think my arm's broken."

But there's some really stupid questions like, ermmm... I can't think of one cause I DON'T ASK STUPID QUESTIONS!!! And who would remember what stupid question stupid people ask... -.-"

*EDIT*
Okay okay.. I remembered what my friend asked me earlier (after 20 mins of remembering what scene I was doing earlier today). He asked me, "Is this glue suppose to stick the papers together?"

BUT!!! Since he's my friend and I don't wish to hurt him, I just looked at him for 5 seconds (with the omg look) and continue my work.. LOL!!!

Okay, hate me if you want but this is me... Like it or not, if anyone comes up to me and asks me a stupid question, I will definitely reply with 100% sarcasm that will pierce through your heart multiple times, thus making you realise how stupid you are to ask stupid questions..

That's kinda harsh eh.. hahaha.. No wonder I don't have many close/best friends.. Like my colleague told me, I have a very sharp tongue.. In malay, it's called Mulut Laser.. Anyhow, Anywhere, Any person, I will just shoot.. LOL!!! =X

Anyway, tomorrow, I'm going to have a very relaxed day at work.. So, I hope to have a relaxed and slow-paced Friday..

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^^*AcA*^^ at 9:18 PM

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Sunday, January 11, 2009

Hey!!! It's New Year already.. Pffffffffft...

I wasn't really into the New Year cause I know for sure it'll be a terrible New Year.. AND SURE ENOUGH!!! Just a couple of days into the New Year, the Israelis invades and MASSACRES INNOCENT CIVILIANS in the Gaza Strip.. Bloody ****.. And **** can still support them by saying Hamas were the ones who aggravated the Israelis... WTF!!!

But anyway, I'm here not to complain but to list down my Wishlist for the year!!

Here goes (arranged from High Priority(1) to Low Priority(7)):

1) MP3 Player - Apple iPod Nano. I was looking around and then I thought of getting a proper MP3 player instead of using my HP as an MP3 player.. And so, my eyes caught on iPod and out of the selections, I think Nano fits me well..

2) Nintendo Wii - Just for the FUN of owning more consoles..

3) NDSi - Singapore Region Release, which I think will be some time in 3rd Quarter..

4) Grand Killer Show 2008 - Nightmare Concert!!! I really really want this!!!

5) New Shoes - Just something to add on to my very limited pairs of shoes I own..

6) New Specs - Been wanting to change but ain't got no moneyyy..

7) New Bag - I want a backpack.. Been using sling for YEARS!!! Since Sec 3 I think.. GOSH!!!

YEAH!!! I'll think of more when the items comes to mind..

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^^*AcA*^^ at 9:04 PM

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Saturday, January 10, 2009

I felt that the service given to me was extremely ridiculous..

I went to the bank to get my Debit Card replaced.. This lady behind the counter told me she would need to retain my card for the replacement.. It was all fine..

She asked for my Identicifation Card as well as the Debit Card and filled up a form.. She then asks for my singature and after I signed the form she told me it was different than the one she has on the system.. I told her that it's the only sigature I have and she said that the signature she has in the system was longer.. So I took some time to think if I actually signed a different signature but I insisted that what I gave was the signature..

So this other lady told me to see my own signature and replicate it.. GUESS WHAT.. My siganture is very cursive and very close together and I was kinda missing one stroke in there..

She made me signed twice more before choosing the most accurate one (all 3 signatures looks the same)..

Now what I find ridiculous was:

1) She has my FULL NAME, NRIC number as well as my FULL ADDRESS as my 11B was with her. My 11B even has my FACE PICTURE.

2) She has full access to my Account (which includes my FULL NAME, NRIC number and FULL ADDRESS). As well as the Savings Acc number and the link from my Debit Card to the savings Account.

I have NO IDEA why she still insists that my signature must be as close as what she has in the system..

HELLO?!?!? CANNOT SEE MY FACE IS IT? MY FACE DIFFERENT FROM WHAT IS IN MY 11B IS IT? MY NRIC NUMBER DIFFERENT IS IT? MY FULL NAME DIFFERENT IS IT?? MY ADDRESS DIFFERENT IS IT???

nb.. I go over to malaysia at the Customs they don't even ask ridiculous questions ar please... They don't ask me to do ridiculous thing ar please.. They see the face same, the name same they allow to pass through liao ar.. You so mahfan for what?? I know banks are not doingso well lah..

I should be scared even more cuz you guys might take my money just like HIGHNOTES.. Take people money but cannot pay back...

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^^*AcA*^^ at 2:33 PM

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